It's chaos.You know it,the same daily chaos that surrounds me when i wake up,when i slowly open my eyes and loose sleep.Messed up.The make up kit lies on the table,just like the glue i used last time when i wanted to create something real.Near these there are 3 jewels boxes full with earrings and pendants,all of them keeping my player in company.The camera is hanging pointless,full of our pictures.
Even the photos completely lost their energy,they don't shine because no one charged them. I left them.
There's a huge amount of paper sheets and books on the floor with some bloody petals on them.The flowers you brought me last time,they died.My teddies hang decapitated and mutilated by me in a moment of excessive fury.One mourns her head sitting near the couch,the other one stands still in pieces by the entrance.
The portraits have gone,i burned them down yesterday...The candles keep burning since then too,letting their wax flow like tears on the wall's cheek.I left your bracelet on the table,near your dvds. Yes,those ones you forgot here.It's stupid. I'm still hoping you'll come get them so i can see you again.
I'm laying in this disastrous landscape too.You'll see me stretched on the sofa,reading all the word you written to me. You left me.
I let them fall while I'm drowning slowly in another dimension.I can't open my eyes,they're bothered by the candles' light. In the background,our song still plays since last night..."this is how you'll know that my love is still strong..." right. It's repeating since last night,it helps. See? Disorder is so comfortable when you need it.
Now I left myself.
duminică, 16 august 2009
Post-break up disaster.